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handed down or made by hand

6th
Jan. × ’10

Each entry I wrote during the Holidailies period had a title that had something to do with the topic being written about, in the form of song lyrics. Here are the songs, in case you were curious: we all must learn from small misfortune “The Closing of the Year” Wendy and Lisa (Toys soundtrack) the […]

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more and more i’m secretly just me

3rd
Jan. × ’10

Bruce used to call me every few months or so, out of the blue. We’d only met in person a few times, but after working on two intense games with him, we had a bond that made conversation easy. And you know what makes conversation easy? When you can have short silences, pauses where you […]

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try whistling this

22nd
Dec. × ’09

The settling in portion of the move is finally gaining momentum. Books, my dearest friends, are filling the shelves, tightly-packed together, by genre, by look, by chapter of my life. Many of my books are well-worn, especially the children’s books I still have – the Scholastic Clifford the Big Red Dog books, the Mother Goose […]

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cold station all of my life, forever i fear

20th
Dec. × ’09

The snow fell in big fat flakes Friday night, and although the plan was to have everyone leave work at around 3, we ended up leaving around 5, which was fine by me. None of the snow really stuck, anyhow, and there was just chilly, slightly sleety rain for the whole evening and far into […]

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there’s nobody on this flat earth would ever want to win it

17th
Dec. × ’09

One of the things I love doing lately is taking my time. If I were a superstitious sort of romantic, I would think that the very molecules of the South had invaded my psyche and pulled time in a slow, thready, sugary-grainy taffy, forcing my limbs to wade through molasses-years’ worth of contemplatory seconds and […]

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with half-closed eyes, things looked even better

15th
Dec. × ’09

Each day feels slower than the next. The fog hangs in the air, wetter than wet, less crisp, more real. Library books stacked on the side table in the living room, and the swish-clatter of the dishwasher. You can even smell the pine trees, which is novel. Every day is a little slower. I drive […]

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i love your slinky spoilers, they really speak to me

14th
Dec. × ’09

Oh, I’m just blue today. I am grateful for a great many things, but at the end of the day, I sometimes feel like my hands are empty. I have nothing to show for myself. It’s ridiculous of course; it’s just a mood, and it will pass eventually. All things must pass. I still play […]

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like a cheap renoir, a fake van gogh, a pop monet, a blue degas

13th
Dec. × ’09

This weekend featured another attempt at emptying one or two more boxes, and finding good homes for the items within. Part of what made settling in to Los Angeles so difficult when I first moved there was not really the fact that a moving company had packed most of my belongings for me. It was […]

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the shameful lowlands of the way i’m drifting

12th
Dec. × ’09

It’s sort of ridiculous, homesickness. I keep telling myself to get used to it, but part of me is resigned to always having these unexpected moments of nostalgic pull towards another place. See, I’ve been cruising right on through the last two seasons of The West Wing, and today I happened to be watching an […]

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only a steel man came to recover

11th
Dec. × ’09

My sleep’s been a little off-kilter the past week or two. I am not sure why this is – I am clearly not under any major stress, other than a little bit of the holiday blues. I am also eating regular meals, taking my vitamins, and feeding my brain with the delicious zombie-killing enjoyment of […]

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